All I asked for was everything. I wanted to make my world yours and yours mine. I wanted to give you my heart and have you hold it close to yours forever. I don't believe that was too much to ask. Regardless, it was too much and you said "No".

Now you want me. You want to hold me and kiss me and call me yours. But I'm not yours. I know I'm not and I know I can't be because you still claim that your actions aren't in your control.  Nothing else you say matters. I can't trust you and I don't. I have to protect myself and my heart because you're too immature to keep it safe.

I'm becoming stronger. I can feel it. I can turn down an offer. I can walk away. I can avoid a situation. I can keep my opinions to myself. I can laugh and smile and dance and not care about anything but what is happening in one moment.

I'm not quite ready to move on. I'm not ready to take my guard off yet. But I will be. I hope that. Maybe next week I'll know that...