Great things about finals being over...

1. I'm still wired so I get more accomplished

2. I can re-watch all the videos that were sent to me out of pure procrastination, and enjoy them even more!

3. New websites about inane things are freaking hilarious!

4. I can buy myself presents and not feel guilty

5. I can return books and never look at them again

6. There is absolutely no homework I could be doing to catch up/get ahead in a class

7. Finals are OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Funniest video I've seen yet

Great, Wide Somewhere

I try to believe that there is good in every person. That people in my life aren't in it just to scramble things up when they seem to be falling into place. I want to believe in second chances. Maybe even third, fourth, fifth, and seventeenth chances. I want to believe that people change. But chances keep getting thrown into the wind like feathers. And my heart gets a small nick in it each time. When does a heart stop working as it should? How much must be chipped away before it can no longer be healed?

Maybe people don't change. Maybe I won't change. Maybe I'll keep giving chances and getting nicked.

Aphrodite, known as the "Venus de Milo"

What's in your ear??

Ringing, and not much else. Because the weather is really starting to change now and be wet and cold/hot instead of dry and cold/hot, I am now officially with cold. Right on schedule. At least my body is consistent.

Other than ringing, this is also in my ear, until my Nyquil kicks in and a go back to Never Never Dreamland...Enjoy!

Britta Persson is a Swedish indie musician. This is the second single off of her new album Current Affair Medium Rare, which is available, currently, only in Scandinavia.

The Air Let Out of a Possibility

It could have been really awesome. But instead, you ruined it.

Is it sad than I'd rather sit in my room alone than face the world of college boys? Don't answer that. I know. Sad.

Sometimes I wish I had kids so Halloween could be fun...

Or a puppy...

Identity crisis much?

The break time feels weird

I've been running on 'Empty' for so long, it feels odd to be recharged and energized. How will I use my time today? Sushi with a dear friend. Maybe a library card I've been meaning to get. Yarn! I really should make those scarves I've been meaning to.

You couldn't pay me to pick up a school book today. Today is my day to enjoy my energy and newfound sense of smiling. Tomorrow I'll (maybe) use to do work. Today is mine.

Be Unstoppable Today

How can anyone be the protagonist in his own life until he stops playing the victim? He can't. He's always going to be owned and never own. I'm done taking the emotional battery because you can't stand up. I'm not a crutch. I'm me. I am unstoppable. We all are. So show it.

The amazing thing is, I can go anywhere in the world, even if no job awaits. My sense of adventure is back. And graduation is so close I can taste it. And for once, I'm not running from; for once, I'm running to. This world has something to offer me, and I, it. I can't wait to discover what that is. And possibly find someone to run with.

I can feel the seasons changing in every aspect of my life.

Oh what a day is today

I slept on my parents' couch last night. I was planning on leaving to go back to my humble abode (apartment) at 9pm last night, but then (hopefully) future me showed up and that plan went kapputz. So after 3 bottles of wine, I slept on the couch and was up before the sun.

My poor puppy is getting so old. Sometimes I forget how old he is because his face screams of youth. Dogs are so precious. I truly believe they're one of the few things on this planet that make it better for us by just existing. I wish I could do that for someone.

my Tanner Blue

 Such a model

He's shy, can't you tell 

Mom's stuff is fun to shoot

 Playing with settings

"I couldn't imagine Heaven to be a very fun place if there weren't any dogs. I guess then, Heaven wouldn't be Heaven."

LaTE nigHt PeANut ButTEr sanDWicH

I decided, after going to sleep at 9:30, that 2 am was a good time to wake up and gorge on peanut butter, cheese its, and hot tea. Should have just stuck with the tea. I now feel disgusting and nauseous. Yay. BUT, I'm happy to say, my cousin loves me and sent me the document that is on every one's mind at Duke. So, at least I had something to read.

I had a MUCH needed gab session with Em. It was nice to let out *some* of what was really going on. It rendered her speechless, as is to be expected. Was I really that good at hiding it?? I'm a little impressed with my acting skills these days. Anyway, it was good to hear that I'm really not that crazy (specifically in the negative sense of the word). At least I understand the human condition enough to be, I don't know, human. I truly believe others should try it.

Apparently the amount I believe in the good in people is astounding to many. For some reason, my trust in others doesn't break. And when it does, it affects me personally more than it does my relationship with those people.

Life is mostly froth and bubble,
Two things stand like stone,
Kindness in another's trouble,
Courage in your own.
~Adam Lindsay Gordon

Knitting needles, let's be friends

Today, today, what shall I do today..?

I think I need a theme here. Ideas?

Online shopping esta no bueno when I have no dinero.

http://www.modcloth.com/store

Dare to dream

I don't think I ever asked my parents where babies come from. Is that really a question kids ask? I don't remember finding out. It could still be all a hoax. I have no proof of where babies come from. I hope that the stork waits until I have enough money to buy food to drop off a cute little bundle of joy at my doorstep (see: apartment hallway). I would, however, appreciate a puppy whenever one decides to find me :)

It's time for a change. Not a little change. A drastic change of personality and purpose. It's time to make a list of the possible directions my life could take. 

List right now:

-move north (DC or NY)

-move west (TX or CA)

-buy a car (if public transportation sucks like in Atlanta...which is doubtful)

-get a job (using my degree...or not)

-go to grad school

It's so far and out of sight...

I have a day to sleep in. So instead, I have nightmares and wake up earlier than usual.

I have too much to say, which has turned into nothing at all. So instead, a question (or a few):
If you knew today would be your last, how would you spend it? Who's arms would you lie in? Who's eyes would you fall into? What would you eat? What would you say?

If you always tell the truth, you never have to remember anything.

The song that's been on repeat for about 2 weeks now...(Click)

Ugghhhh...I'm too tired to exist. What do I do now?

I have no paper, so I learned how to make paper tulips with magazine pages. I'll add it to my kindergarten resume, right under coloring and napping.

I really hope this tension releasing tea is one of the instant gratification variety

Peace

I think maybe I'll stop hiding. Maybe I'll even open this space up for others to see. How do I stop being alone if I won't let anyone in?

It's time for something new. Not something tangible. Or maybe so. I need to go back to enjoying the simple things. Chocolate melting in my mouth. The warmth of the sun on my skin. The look that's almost audible.

Happiness lies in the simple things. I have to find those things again.